Am I Asexual and Proud?

A question has been going through my mind lately. Am I really an out and proud asexual when I’ve really only ever told one person about it? And that one person was only a friend. None of my family members know.

You see, all they really know is that I don’t date and pretty much avoid relationships beyond simple friendship. It’s hard to think about telling them exactly why when marriage and family is a super important part of my religion. I mean, homosexuality or bisexuality, might even be preferable in my religion to my being asexual.Even though I am asexual, I have still always wanted a family. Not the traditional Christian, mommy/daddy, stay at home mom with dinner fresh on the table every night, kind of family, but my own kind. I want kids, one or two at the most with a job that I love.

To me, that kind of life would be absolutely perfect.But to my grandparents, it would be anything but. They are all for the church wedding with a long white dress and all the family in attendance.One part of me wants to just let them live in blissful ignorance until I absolutely have to tell them. And yet the bigger part of me still wants to let the truth be known. I don’t know.

Maybe me knowing and accepting it is enough. Just knowing that I belong somewhere makes me happy, so why should I worry about making anyone else happy? I never have been one to conform to the norm, so why start now?Sorry for the rant, but my identity is super important to me.

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